Jonathan shared this with me today. We are all individualists so we choose to make friends with others because we want to understand them, understand why they behave the way they do, etc. If this is the case, i think, people nowadays chooses to make friends just for company, and for them to understand them. ... Maybe this is just the way i behave :p I've been expecting my friends to understand me and I haven't been trying to understand them lately. bad gr! bad bad gr :o
I've been kinda depressed lately, and i think i'm going downhill. I felt useless and unwanted for a while today and for a while, i keep thinking that i was stupid, anything i say is useless, and i felt just like an extra, thinking nobody wants me to be around them.
Gotta zhen zuo ah...
I think i believed too much in the adage "do unto others what you want others to do unto you". I can't really expect other people to treat me the way i treat them... not that i treat them very well, but... ...
I always thought that i'll be happy trying to make other people happy, but i haven't been too happy recently, maybe i didn't try hard enough.. Can i just ask for someone to make me happy unconditionally? ... :p
Think i've been whining too much recently... sorry to those friends that i've been doing it to (a_a) I've got to stop feeling discontented :O
I dreamt of a bit of love this morning :) but i forgot how the person looks like :/
It is Valentine's day today and we're in school :/ We're discussing ideas for our project.
After the project discussion ended, we were about to go our own ways when MJ suggested going to ADM, then we all decided to go there together :p
See? Everybody in our group is having so much fun :o Come join our group today! ... :p
After tons of jumping photos taken of us, i think this is the best looking one. ( as in i don't look awful in it la :p) Jia En is the one who always doing those cool jumps. He said he was able to do all these because he always practises jumping in front of the mirror...!! :p
After the tiring "workout" on the top of ADM, we went to reward ourselves with dessert at Hall 2. The space/location of the dessert stall was previously vacant and before that there were other shops which came and went. But, i have a feeling that this dessert stall is here to stay. I had black sesame shaved ice with muesli cereal and chocolate sauce :6
We had dinner at Waraku, at Marina Square. I didn't take any photos because my camera ran out of battery/electricity. It was kinda like a sharing of knowledge session. about civil stuff :p I think FX was the most enlightened that night :p
Due to a few factors, i felt kinda depressed today. But after bitching to 4 of my friends :p, i felt a lot better. I must really try not to have any expectations...
I may not know who likes me the most now, but i think i know who don't like me the most.. :/
This thinking just popped into my head today. What if, your friend is hanging from a cliff/high place and you could only reach him using a sword? That sword doesn't have any scabbard holding it so one end is sharp. Would you hold the sharp end or would you let your friend hold the sharp end? ... i got another one :p If, you were to accidentally fall down from a cliff, and luckily/unluckily, your arm managed to get run through by a (sharp branch)/(a sword stuck on the wall of the cliff), and you managed to stop falling. Would you try to pull your arm out? or just hang there and wait for help while there's a branch/sword still sticking through your arm? :s .. I'm gross :/
A few of the E group people went over to frank's house on sat to bai nian. And as usual, frank never fails to amaze us with his culinary skills... (trying to brush up on my descriptions :p ) After eating, after camwhoring for a bit, then a bit more, then a bit more... :p we finally settled down to playing blackjack. I was a bit sian diao after the first round when frank( the dealer) won and told everybody that he always win during CNY :/ and he did, keep the tradition going :6 After a few rounds, his aunt took over as the banker. ... I can only say.. it all runs in the family... :/
The door which i walked through frequently during sec school days.
The lights which i have seen since my sec sch days.
I'm at.... shao's house :o i went over with ben after work to go bai nian, and did what we usually do.. gamble! :p but i've changed this year, i stopped after just losing a bit... no la.. actually i stopped coz i was still traumatised by the previous day, when i lost to frank and his aunt :s ... :p
There have been quite a number of situations when i feel that very strange/awkward just being there. I don't really know whether it's because i don't fit in or for some other reasons. Being in a pub, being in groups, sometimes even being with friends... i just feel very detached at times. It's just like i can't fully immerse myself in the current situation. It might be because i'm too self conscious... :/ or is it just because my thinking is weird? or... maybe it's just because i'm not getting enough attention?... :p
A few more other pics from teresa's party.
I used to wear my cap this way. Think this looks ok right...?
The baby looks so cute! all thanks to his mom and dad :o my friends were saying that they also wanted to give birth to one asap :p It was the first time i held a newborn baby, just after one day it was born. His birthday is the same as mine!! The year is different la... :p Now i really know what the commercials are really talking about. His hair is really really very soft and his skin is really really very smooth, soft. I want one too!! :p
My face looks kinda distorted here :/ We went out to watch a movie and lunch+dinner. CJ17 is a good movie. I felt that Stephen Chow shouldn't have said that this show would be aimed at making people cry, because, i felt a bit not shuang when i cried during the show just now. I was thinking " sian... why am i crying like what he said..." ... :p and... black pepper crabs isn't what i thought it is. I forgot whether have i tasted it before, but i thought it doesn't have any gravy or sauce on it, just lots of pepper powder.. :/ Chilli Crab is nicer!!
Think i've been saying something like this for a few times recently... "ignorance is bliss.". Having more knowledge may help you understand the situation better and there may be other benefits. But to me... i can only say that, sometimes, the truth is ugly. Knowing what are the people around you really like, knowing why they behave the way they do, doesn't exactly make me feel that " I know what kind of people they are really like, so i can guard myself against them and i'll be safe." I think i've been accepting a lot of stuff at face value just so that i can save myself the mental torture. As long as they think they're happy like this, and the people around me and me are not really hurt, i think they can do whatever they want... but sometimes, i don't really know whether is anybody hurt because I haven't been bothering too much about others or myself. Think i was a bit too successful in ignoring everything :s (Anyway, "knowing" in this paragraph, is accompanied by the meaning of "trying to guess/assume" :p ) ... Does knowing more make you happier?
I met up with vinc, wendy, bel, ck and hj at settler's.
Mr bu-yuan-yi and Mr don't-care-abt-mr-bu-yuan-yi... :p
"u can't see my hand right? :P"
bel's eyes look funny... :p
Pictionary!
ya, i am... :/
This picture looks like there's something missing right... which is me! 
vinc's briefs/undies was peeking out of his pants when he put his arms around our shoulder :p
I met up with shaun, jason and stanley the next day. They looked really sian that day so didn't really have any xin qing to take any photos :p Then i met up with susi, yuwei and yuyi and went to MOF at bugis.
"I'm not the one who posed in those 'dirty' pictures" .... :p can you guess who i'm talking about?
Start of opening of gift.
Moment i saw the gift.
haha! damn cool right. It's a denim apron :o Think this present deserves a mention because susi put in a lot of effort to help to buy this work uniform. The owner didn't sell this before and didn't want to sell it but susi managed to use her "mei ren ji" to convince the owner :p So i think i'm the only one who's not working at that establishment and yet, owns that apron. Cool dao bao!
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Teresa's 21st bday.
Everyone was a bit too high that night, but it was fun. :)
I was watching 27 dresses just now, and i decided then that, i like watching romantic movies! :p I like to have this sweet feeling inside, like to feel sad when there's sad moments. I like to feel angry for the bullied, like to feel happy when something good happens to the main character. I like to... feel :o ... i don't really know what i'm saying :/
Jonathan is going to help to design a t-shirt that's going to be worn by hundreds of people. Notice how he's concentrating on his drawing (0_0)
Notice the title of this entry. It's the time i took to run my laps for my 2.4! :) I got a perfect score today :o I was really so super nervous until i almost hyperventilated. My heartbeat was beating really fast because i was so pressured by myself to get gold so that i can get the sum of money to offset the extra money i used during the dec hols :/
When trying to win any "competition", sometimes people resort to backstabbing or other tactics to try to get in front of the others. I think, if you're not aiming to be one of the first few, you won't be caught up in the "tussle". Or another way to not be too involved in the "fight", would be for you to not to think so much, not to read too much into other's actions. But this may result in you being taken advantage of. hmmm.... When you feel that you've been taken advantage of, or being backstabbed, is it really true or is it only from your point of view? ...
We were walking out of Paragon after grabbing some bites to eat when we saw this group gathering around this central area. I thought his singing sounded like it's a recorded song.
I just realised that i'm working tomorrow and weds till closing.... errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr dao bao!! seriously! i shoudn't have said that i was able to work on the only 2 nights that i'm free... .. I still think it's super disgusting... :6
hmmm.. i must be calm and careful this year to enjoy god luck, wealth and health. and i got a good lot for a qian that i went to ask at the temple at bugis :) I won't sit and wait.
This is one of the reasons why i like taking pictures so much. I like to capture moments that are real and beautiful... the beautiful part is referring to the picture as a whole :/ Is this picture nice?
I couldn't get a nice picture of the fireworks because my 2nd I/C was passing me instructions.
The photographer by PAYM.. i think :p
jr looks like a girl here!! :p haha
at the stage of the party. Think the polo tee would look nicer if it was of another colour :p
Peeps from Area D.
!! Who's this?? :s
The face behind the big camera.
junrong is sooo soooo tired...
I seldom see no cars on the streets... especially in town.
It is Valentine's day today and we're in school :/ We're discussing ideas for our project.
After the project discussion ended, we were about to go our own ways when MJ suggested going to ADM, then we all decided to go there together :p
See? Everybody in our group is having so much fun :o Come join our group today! ... :p
After tons of jumping photos taken of us, i think this is the best looking one. ( as in i don't look awful in it la :p) Jia En is the one who always doing those cool jumps. He said he was able to do all these because he always practises jumping in front of the mirror...!! :p
After the tiring "workout" on the top of ADM, we went to reward ourselves with dessert at Hall 2. The space/location of the dessert stall was previously vacant and before that there were other shops which came and went. But, i have a feeling that this dessert stall is here to stay. I had black sesame shaved ice with muesli cereal and chocolate sauce :6
The door which i walked through frequently during sec school days.
The lights which i have seen since my sec sch days.
I'm at.... shao's house :o i went over with ben after work to go bai nian, and did what we usually do.. gamble! :p but i've changed this year, i stopped after just losing a bit... no la.. actually i stopped coz i was still traumatised by the previous day, when i lost to frank and his aunt :s ... :p
There have been quite a number of situations when i feel that very strange/awkward just being there. I don't really know whether it's because i don't fit in or for some other reasons. Being in a pub, being in groups, sometimes even being with friends... i just feel very detached at times. It's just like i can't fully immerse myself in the current situation. It might be because i'm too self conscious... :/ or is it just because my thinking is weird? or... maybe it's just because i'm not getting enough attention?... :p
I used to wear my cap this way. Think this looks ok right...?
The baby looks so cute! all thanks to his mom and dad :o my friends were saying that they also wanted to give birth to one asap :p It was the first time i held a newborn baby, just after one day it was born. His birthday is the same as mine!! The year is different la... :p Now i really know what the commercials are really talking about. His hair is really really very soft and his skin is really really very smooth, soft. I want one too!! :p
My face looks kinda distorted here :/ We went out to watch a movie and lunch+dinner. CJ17 is a good movie. I felt that Stephen Chow shouldn't have said that this show would be aimed at making people cry, because, i felt a bit not shuang when i cried during the show just now. I was thinking " sian... why am i crying like what he said..." ... :p and... black pepper crabs isn't what i thought it is. I forgot whether have i tasted it before, but i thought it doesn't have any gravy or sauce on it, just lots of pepper powder.. :/ Chilli Crab is nicer!!
Think i've been saying something like this for a few times recently... "ignorance is bliss.". Having more knowledge may help you understand the situation better and there may be other benefits. But to me... i can only say that, sometimes, the truth is ugly. Knowing what are the people around you really like, knowing why they behave the way they do, doesn't exactly make me feel that " I know what kind of people they are really like, so i can guard myself against them and i'll be safe." I think i've been accepting a lot of stuff at face value just so that i can save myself the mental torture. As long as they think they're happy like this, and the people around me and me are not really hurt, i think they can do whatever they want... but sometimes, i don't really know whether is anybody hurt because I haven't been bothering too much about others or myself. Think i was a bit too successful in ignoring everything :s (Anyway, "knowing" in this paragraph, is accompanied by the meaning of "trying to guess/assume" :p ) ... Does knowing more make you happier?
Mr bu-yuan-yi and Mr don't-care-abt-mr-bu-yuan-yi... :p
"u can't see my hand right? :P"
ya, i am... :/
vinc's briefs/undies was peeking out of his pants when he put his arms around our shoulder :p
"I'm not the one who posed in those 'dirty' pictures" .... :p can you guess who i'm talking about?
Start of opening of gift.
haha! damn cool right. It's a denim apron :o Think this present deserves a mention because susi put in a lot of effort to help to buy this work uniform. The owner didn't sell this before and didn't want to sell it but susi managed to use her "mei ren ji" to convince the owner :p So i think i'm the only one who's not working at that establishment and yet, owns that apron. Cool dao bao!
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Teresa's 21st bday.
Jonathan is going to help to design a t-shirt that's going to be worn by hundreds of people. Notice how he's concentrating on his drawing (0_0)
