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A few of the E group people went over to frank's house on sat to bai nian. And as usual, frank never fails to amaze us with his culinary skills... (trying to brush up on my descriptions :p ) After eating, after camwhoring for a bit, then a bit more, then a bit more... :p we finally settled down to playing blackjack. I was a bit sian diao after the first round when frank( the dealer) won and told everybody that he always win during CNY :/ and he did, keep the tradition going :6 After a few rounds, his aunt took over as the banker. ... I can only say.. it all runs in the family... :/
The door which i walked through frequently during sec school days.
The lights which i have seen since my sec sch days.
I'm at.... shao's house :o i went over with ben after work to go bai nian, and did what we usually do.. gamble! :p but i've changed this year, i stopped after just losing a bit... no la.. actually i stopped coz i was still traumatised by the previous day, when i lost to frank and his aunt :s ... :p

There have been quite a number of situations when i feel that very strange/awkward just being there. I don't really know whether it's because i don't fit in or for some other reasons. Being in a pub, being in groups, sometimes even being with friends... i just feel very detached at times. It's just like i can't fully immerse myself in the current situation. It might be because i'm too self conscious... :/ or is it just because my thinking is weird? or... maybe it's just because i'm not getting enough attention?... :p