nobody

I've seen this similar performance quite a number of times and I still enjoy it :o

@#$%!

I know now :o The reason why i am not feeling good, is because I had nothing to think about and felt kinda lost... meaning, I only chose to think about @#$%! only, and chose not to think about anything else, and because there's no @#$%! for me to think about.
So, now, I will choose not to think about @#$%! and choose to think about other things.... Jia you :o

help?

" But the reason your relationships are in such a mess is that you're always trying to figure out what the other person wants and what other people want - instead of what you truly want.

[When is it disempowering to offer help? When does it work against, rather than for, another's growth?
When your help is offered in such a way that it creates continued dependence, rather than rapid independence.
When you allow another, in the name of compassion, to begin to rely on you rather than rely on themselves. That is not compassion, that is compulsion. You have a power compulsion. Because that sort of helping is really power-tripping. Now this distinction can be very subtle here, and sometimes you don't even know you are power-tripping. You really believe you are simply doing your best to help another... yet be careful that you are not simply seeking to create your own self-worth. For to the extent that you allow other persons to make you responsible for them, to that extent you have allowed them to make you powerful. And that, of course, makes you feel worthy.
Yet this kind of help is an aphrodisiac which seduces the weak.
The goal is to help the weak grow strong, not to let the weak become weaker."
-quoted :o

why. feel. bad.

I've been feeling weird recently.. And i feel alone... I don't like feeling alone...
I don't want to accept this feeling.. ... I will see how for the next few days.. see whether this feeling will go away...


Actually.... I think i don't know the reason for me feeling bad... It may not be due to this thing which i termed as loneliness... ... I will find out :o

no ne ed

" All conflict arises from misplaced desire.
The only peace in all the world that is sustaining is Internal Peace.
Let each person find peace within. When you find peace within, you also find that you can do without.
This means simply that you no longer need the things of your outside world. "Not needing" is a great freedom. It frees you, first, fro mfear: fear that there is something you won't have; fear that there is something you have that you will lose; and fear that without a certain thing, you won't be happy.
Secondly, "not needing" frees you from anger.
Anger is fear pronounced. When you have nothing to fear, you have nothing over which to be angry. You are not angry when you don't get what you want, because your wanting it was simply a preference, not a necessity. You therefore have no fear associated with the possiblity of not getting it. Hence, no anger.
You are not angry when you see others doing what you don't want them to do, because you don't need them to do or not do the particular thing. Hence, no anger. You are not angry when someone is unkind, because you have no need for them to be kind. You have no anger when someone is unloving, because you have no need for them to love you. You have no anger when someone is cruel, or hurtful, or seeks to damage you, for you have no need for them to behave any other way, and you are clear that you cannot be damaged.
You do not even have anger should someone seek to take your life, because you do not fear death.
When fear is taken from you, all else can be taken from you and you will not be angry.

Need nothing. Desire everything. Choose what shows up.
Feel your feelings. Cry your cries. Laugh your laughs. Honour your truth."
-quoted :o

treat or treat

I will be transferred to another department at LTA tommorow.. for the last week of my attachment. So, Mr Ng gave me a lunch treat :o


This is ting, who always lend me her mobile internet, who I have lunch with most of the time, who I talk to most of the time, who also helped me a lot with my attachment. Anyway, both Mr Ng and ting, are not from LTA.


They didn't eat too much, so i ate most of the food, so I was sort of the "rubbish dump"... but i didn't mind :p



Last afternoon sky at my current site at amk.


I will do what i feel like doing.

envious!!!

My brother, secretly, went to attend driving lessons since last December, and just passed his driving test today... I kind of respect him for being able to pay for the lessons himself and being able to attend them while attending school, before he graduated one or two month's back, and working part time... I will ask how he did it and i'll just follow :o

BAlls

Haha.. I've been applying the magician's theory lately.. And i find it a bit amusing that i can actually change my thinking and see things in another light when i'm having any negative feelings... I don't think I'm very good with it though... yet... I will keep practising until i get better :o


Today, I was reminded of the feeling of "balls shrinking" :s I was climbing up this scaffolding and it was quite tall, around 3 to 4 metres. And there were gaps on the floor that i was at :s Too bad that my camera is with my sister today, so i couldn't take any photos :/

no need

"Appropriate" behavior is not always the behavior that's in what you call your "best interests". It is rarely the behavior that brings you the most joy.

Enjoy everything.
Need nothing.
[Including people?]
Including people.
Especially people. Needing someone is the fastest way to kill a relationship.
[But we all like to feel needed.]
Then stop it. Like to feel unneeded instead - for the greatest gift you can give someone is the strength and the power not to need you, to need you for nothing.
-quoted from "Conversations with god- Book 2"

hungry reminder

Whenever you order too much food and you can't finish it..
Whenever you feel that the food you eat is not good enough for you...




watch this video..
http://www.cultureunplugged.com/play/1081/Chicken-a-la-Carte

magicians, we are..

Here are some good meal offers for students that i saw on the papers... last week :p


Thank you to Mg Ng again :o (He also bought me a Kit Kat today :o)


Together with marc, I went to collect my race pack for adidas sundown the previous saturday. The guy on the photo, was the first to queue up and was said to have been at the queue up area since 9.15am, when everybody reached there at only around 10.30am. And he was sitting down while everybody was standing up.... so kiasu and inconsiderate right? .... :s ... ... ... .......I don't know what else to say le... Actually the guy in the photo is marc and i was with him :p We thought that everybody would reach early and as he had to work in the afternoon, we decided to go early. But it turned out that it wasn't necessary.



I like this cup of cookies and cream :o And the seats are very comfortable. But if you want to find a nice seat, try to be there in the morning, because it would be quite difficult to find one in the afternoon, as during the weekends.


Imperfections and perfections... flaws.. Again, they are a bunch of very subjective and relative defining words. Everything and everybody is just who/what they are.



I think it's quite amazing.. I realized that we do have the power to make things look like what we want them to look like... to ourselves and/or to others.. We are less proficient with the latter because we cannot control what others think/do but we can control ourselves easily..

illusion

The world is an illusion, because everyone can choose to see things the way we want to see them.... I also feel that it is like a subjective reality..



I got a bit upset today, again, out of the way i saw things.When actually, it is not that person's intention. ... I felt a bit silly..

KIV

I have seen this in emails countless of times, but I always choose to ignore it, because I have seen it before. But i realized that all of us need reminders of what the more important things in life are.. so i read it again.... You just have to give it at most 5 minutes, and you'll know too..


"The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller building but shorter tempers, wider Freeways , but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more
experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.
We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.

We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things.

We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one
night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete...


Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever.

Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.

Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.

Remember, to say, 'I love you' to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.

Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again.

Give time to love, give time to speak! And give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.

AND ALWAYS REMEMBER:
Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

ship ahoy :o

I don't want obligations to be the only thing holding my relationships together, be it friendships or loveships... I would rather they sink :o

tips to having a good life (not in relative terms)

friendly

There was an article on an interesting website in today's papers.

http://www.couchsurfing.org/

I haven't really went to look at the site. But apparently, it's a website where you can register and you could be a host to guests from other countries by accepting their requests or ,when you go overseas, you can bunk on the couches or guest rooms of others when others accept your requests. And, the locals could choose to take the guests around for a tour of their country. .... ... Think I might try it if i have my own home.

vibes

"All the world is exchanging energy all the time.
Your energy is pushing out, touching everything else. Everything and everyone else is touching you. But now an interesting thing happens. At some point midway between you and everything else – those energies meet.
To make a more vivid description, let’s imagine two people in the room. They are on the far sides of the room from each other. We’ll call them Tom and Mary.
Now Tom’s personal energy is transmitting signals about Tom in a 360-degree circle out in the universe. Some of that energy wave hits Mary.
Mary, meanwhile, is emitting her own energy – some of which hits Tom.
But these energies meet each other in a way you may not have thought of. They meet midway between Tom and Mary.
Here, the energies unite (remember now, these energies are physical phenomena; they can be measured, felt) and combine to form a new energy unit we'll call "Tomary." It is the energy of Tom and Mary combined.
Tom and Mary could very well call this energy The Body Between Us - for it is just that: a body of energy to which both are connected, which both are feeding the continuing energies which flow to it, and which is sending energies back to its two "sponsors" along the thread, or cord, or pipeline that always exist within the Matrix. (Indeed, this "pipeline" is the Matrix.)
It is this experience of "Tomary" which is the truth of Tom and Mary. It is to this Holy Communion that both are drawn. For they feel, along the pipeline, the sublime joy of the Body Between, of the Joined One, of the Blessed Union.
Tom and Mary, standing off at a distance, can feel - in a physical way - what is going on in the Matrix. Both are urgently drawn toward this experience. They want to move toward each other at once! At once!
Now their "training" sets in. The world has trained them to slow down, to mistrust the feeling, to guard against "hurt", to hold back.
But the soul... wants to know "Tomary" - now!
If te two are lucky, they will be free enough to set aside their fears and trust that love is all there is.
They are irrevocably drawn now, those two, to the Body Between Them. TOMARY is already being experienced metaphysically, and Tom and Mary will want to experience it physically. So they'll move closer together. Not to get to each other. It looks that way to the casual observer. But they are each trying to get to TOMARY. they are trying to reach that place of Divine Union which already exists between them. The place where they already know they are One - and what it is like to be One.
So they move toward this "feeling" they are experiencing, and, as they close the gap between them, as they "shorten the cord," the energy they are both sending to TOMARY travels a shorter distance and is thus more intense.
They move closer still. The shorter the distance, the greater the intensity. They move closer still. Once more the intensity increases.
Now they just stand a few feet apart. The Body Between them is glowing hot. Vibrating with terrific speed. The "connection" to and from TOMARY is thicker, wider, brighter, burning with the transfer of incredible energy. The two are said to be "burning with desire." They are!
They move closer still.
Now, they touch.
The sensation is almost unbearable. Exquisite. They feel, at the point of their touch, all the energy of TOMARY - all the compacted, intensely unified substance of their Combined Being.
If you open yourself to your greatest sensitivity, you'll be able to feel this subtle, sublime energy as a tingling when you touch - sometimes the "tingling" will run right through you - or as heat at the point of your touch - heat which you may also suddenly feel throughout your body - but concentrated deeply within your lower chakra, or energy center.
It will "burn" there especially intensely - and Tom and Mary will now be said to have the "hots" for each other!
Now the two embrace, and they close the gap even further, with Tom, Mary, Tomary all filling nearly the same space. Tom and Mary can feel Tomary between them - and they want to get even closer - to literally meld with Tomary. To become Tomary in physical form.
I have created in the male and female bodies a way to do that. At this moment, Tom and Mary's bodies are ready to do that. Tom's body is now ready to literally enter Mary. Mary's body is ready to literally receive Tom within her.
The tingling, the burning, is now beyond intense. It is ... indescribable. The two physical bodies join. Tom, Mary, and Tomary become One. In the flesh.
Still the energies flow between them. Urgently. Passionately.
They heave. They move. They can't get enough of each other, can't get close enough together. They strive to get close. Close. CLOSER.
They explode - literally - and their entire physical bodies convulse. The vibration sends ripples to their fingertips...."
- quoted from "Conversations with God - Book Two"

what do you expect?

I cannot keep going blindly against the expectations others have of me. I have to see whether those are the same as mine...... and then decide whether to go against them... :p

self-gratification

"All of your life you have been taught that it is better to give than to receive. Yet you cannot give what you do not have.
This is why self-gratification is so important – and why it is so unfortunate that it has come to sound so ugly. Obviously, self-gratification at the expense of others is not what we’re talking about here. This is not about ignoring the needs of others. Yet life should also not have to be about ignoring your own needs. Give yourself abundant pleasure, and you will have abundant pleasure to give others."
-quoted from the 2nd book.

shooting me?

ohh... i almost forgot... but i still remembered... :/ I think i need to say it out here to get it out of my system.

Last Saturday, while i was on my way out of sentosa, there was this not bad looking couple sitting in front of me on the sky train. My friend nudged me as i was typing some smses and said that he will tell me something after we get off. Soon after, when we reached vivocity, he told me that, the couple in front of me, thought that i was taking pictures of them using my handphone :s I think it was because i was kind of holding my camera upright, and right in front of them... but i wasn't aware of this when i was doing it. At first, i felt very maligned= yuan wang (chim word!! :p ), but i realized that i had one or two similar experiences when i thought someone else was taking photos of me because they had their cameras up right in front of me. I will not jump to conclusions next time, and i will be more sensitive to other people next time, either by covering up my camera when i sms in front of others (chris taught me this method), or by not holding up my handphone at a too upright position.

choice

"Decide Who You Are – Who you want to be – and then do everything in your power to be that

Yet do not choose sex instead of love, but as a celebration of it. And do not choose power over, but power with. And do not choose fame as an end in itself, but as a means to a larger end. And do not choose success at the expense of others, but as a tool with which to assist others. And do not choose winning at any cost, but winning that costs others nothing, and even brings them gain as well.
Go ahead and choose the adulation of others – but see all others as beings upon which you can shower adulation, and do it!
Go ahead and choose being better – but not better than others; rather, better than you were before.
Go ahead and choose having more, but only so that you have more to give.
And yes, choose “knowing how” and “knowing why” – so that you can share all knowledge with others."
- quoted from the 2nd book.

feel in

I went kayaking again this sunday :o









I didn't expect to do anything new this time, but we did :o We docked at the mini jetty at Marina Barrage.




All their jumping photos rock :o seriously... I like the background of the sky in the photos.

:s

You can be who you want to be. But if you don't feel(not think) good being that person, it means that you don't want to be that person.. Just go in a different direction...