one thing at a time

Ermmm.. thanks again to everyone who asked me to think less... as i said to one person, "i'm just going through one of the few periods in a year when i'll feel like shit.." :p so... ya... i'll be fine soon :o
French food isn't my 菜 :/


I like this show :o





I need to stop myself from getting distracted. I want to immerse myself in the situation totally. An example would be, when i'm in the lecture, i would be listening attentively to the lecturer. When i'm doing my homework, i would be concentrating on doing it. When i'm with my friends, i will not think too much about schoolwork and other stuff. 一心不能二用 :o

sensing happiness

If you can smell/ feel/ see/ hear/ taste happiness, what would it be?

I hope that everyone of you can leave a comment on the blog instead of the tagboard, answering the question that i post above... ok? You can also ask your friends for their answers and put it in the comments section, but if it's too troublesome, then it's ok... :p Thanks :o I'm just curious to find out what are the different answers i can see... It's ok if there's no answers for certain parts.

Just a rough guide here... For me, it's

• Smelling the smell of warm freshly-made bread
• Feeling the warmth of a person next to me when i'm very cold
• ... this is a hard one... see..... Love! i'm happy when i see love. no matter where it is... :p
  
• Hearing genuine laughter of people, especially children
• Having the first taste of sweet chocolates/ cakes when i'm hungry

prepresentsent

83 at the botanic gardens :o



Haven't been in a cam-whoring mood for a very very long time.. Is it because i think i'm getting bored of it? Or is it because i don't think i look as good as last time? Or is it because i just don't feel like it? or is it because a lot of friends have expressed their disgust at the only look i have on my photos ... :p I realised that i like taking pictures of people expressing their true emotions, especially during when they're having a good time, be it candid or posed. I like capturing good moments on my camera as they can last longer than memories. But recently, i've come to think that, they might not even be real... as in... people who are not close, yet having fun together... :/ ... ok.. now i know my problem as i was typing that out... i'm just envious that i can't have fun like a lot of people i know. It doesn't matter whether they are close anot. The most important thing is that they are having fun. My friend sent me this...

"心很小的时候，世界就变得很小，小得看不起一片美丽的树叶。

心很乱的时候，路就变得很多，我们都是这样走失的...

简单的幸福，就是别想太多，开心就好。"

Think i've been wasting a lot of time thinking...

you see? i don't even dare to look at myself in the camera.... :p

Existence... I've been feeling kinda useless recently... Being a super boring person, i don't want to affect and bore my friends to death, so i don't want to hang out with them. .. Why am i feeling like this recently? Maybe.. Maybe it's because this is the seventh month... ... :p

life should be beautiful

Parts and pieces taken out from an email..

• Try to make at least 3 people smile each day
• Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
• Don't take yourself so seriously, no one else does.
• Make peace with your past, so it won't mess up the present.
• Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
• What other people think of you is none of your business.
• However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
• Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful, and joyful.

box up

Everybody has this box with them. And the size differs from one another. Once it's filled up, either by themselves or by others, only then, they can start filling up the boxes of others.

Love is one thing that helps to fill up the box.

random

I remembered some stuff from some self help book that i read last time.

• Everybody likes to feel that they're important... in some way or another
• Everybody, or most people, wants to be 熟 with each other

Everybody would prefer to have close friends instead of just acquaintances. But few would really put in extra effort to be close to someone. Most would hope for things to fall slowly in place. If we become good friends, it would be fate. If we don't, it's fate too.. :s

I can't hold a proper conversation anymore. Can someone give me some tips? or i might go to the library one of these days to borrow a book to teach me...

My favourite place to hang out in school, would be the CAD Lab :o It's very quiet and not a lot of people would go there to use the computers because either they don't know about the place, or it's because it's out of the way.

2 girls i dislike the most

miss understanding and miss communication :o The moment i see these 2 girls appearing within my sight, i'll get a headache. So, i'll always try to avoid them at all costs. Miss Communication comes whenever knowledge ( very loosely based word) is not totally passed around. Miss Understanding comes whenever knowledge is passed around in the form of the sender's perception... and normally everybody do not perceive in the same way.

The single biggest problem in communication is the illusion that it has taken place. --- George Bernard Shaw

知己知己，百战百胜 :p

After 24 years, i've finally realized that, actually, i'm a more thinking person instead of a more feeling one. I always think how i feel instead of feel how i feel... In the past, because of some problems (some created by myself :/ ), i've learnt to place myself in the position of a third party viewing the situation so that i would not be too affected.. So that my feelings would not affect my judgement.. So that i can think clearly of how i should react.. So that i would not be sad... As a result, i've always distanced myself away from my feelings. Luckily there's a few ways that i can get close to my feelings.

• Participate in pranks to be played on others :p
• Watching touching shows
• Looking at selfish behavior :/

etc....
At the start, i couldn't really accept myself for being a more thinking person and i always envied those people who are in touch with their feelings.. but i'm ok with myself now. I just have to do those things more often to let myself get in touch with my feelings more :p

Different people have different ways to get their kicks :o

too used

My friend got this tissue paper at Singapore Discovery Centre :p

Yesterday, i went to the red dot museum.. to do what i missed out the first time i went last month. It's to... have my painting/drawing done :o You just have to sit still for around 10 minutes, and there'll be various artists using their own methods to put your image down onto a piece of paper. There's one that uses blue pen, another one that uses water colours, one that uses a pencil, etc...

At first i thought it would be really fun. But i got quite nervous when i was sitting there by myself, being looked upon by the artists and passerbys :/

When i'm not smiling, a lot of people have mentioned that i looked sad or that i look like i have a lot of problems :s








Ii had to think really long and hard to reduce the number of pictures to 2 from the 4 that i took a liking to. (the main 4 in the picture above) Each picture costs $8.

I bought these 2 in the end. The drawing in blue pen really struck me and i felt that this was the nicest picture of all. I think it's because the guy drew me to be even better than i really look :p The 2 artists below are the ones who did the pictures above. The lady drew the one with the watercolours.


Sch's starting tommorow :o

more myself

I didn't really feel very relaxed over at tioman. But there were some times that i enjoyed myself over there, times when i didn't bring my camera along :p E.g. lying on the shore, jumping off the jetty by myself :p, etc...

We didn't really felt hungry at any time because of the buffet breakfasts and dinners :s We also bought extra food for tea time and supper :p

mj's porn photo :p






Yesterday, my friend borrowed a special pass which allowed the holder to enter most of singapore's attractions for free. As it was only for one day, we decided to choose to go to sentosa as there were a lot of attractions over there.

Images of Singapore was our first stop. Followed by a Sky ride, then we went to the Underwater World :o Manta rays are fun to touch :p






Lastly, we took the cable car back. It isn't as fantastic as i expected it to be... but ok la.. :p

I had this thought recently. We can't always only do things that make us happy. It might not necessarily be good for us, e.g. not studying, spending all our time hanging out with friends and going out, splurging on clothes and gadgets, etc... But then again, who's to define what's good... :p