I get really defensive and guilty when somebody feels bad in any situation involving to me. It seems that I want to take responsibility for that.
Think it is due to myself, wanting to meet the expectations of what others have of me. This is one of the reasons why I don't like to know too many people, as it is a bad habit of mine to meet their expectations of me.
I know I cannot blame others for me wanting to meet their expectations, and getting stressed along the way. I have to learn to do things within my means.
Things will change, and I know I am kinda resistant to it. But changes happen due to everybody/everything adjusting to each other.. kinda like every one and thing is matching up to each other's expectations.. haha..
but.. there are people that I treasure and I sure hope that I will not lose any of them when I have changes in my life or when i am changing.
I love b, and my close friends and family.
In this new year 2015, may everyone have the strength to overcome any obstacles, the health to enjoy whatever we are all doing, and the love to care for ourselves and the people around us :o
