Grey

The title doesn't describe how I feel. But it describes how I think, most of the time now.

I have always been in the grey area. There isn't any black and white. A good thing is that i am very open towards any thinking. A bad thing is that, I will be easily contented being on any side of the fence.

There are things that I want. But I wouldn't be able to achieve them if I keep thinking that I am okay like this. I keep telling myself that I am fine being the way I am now.

I don't want to be contented with what I have now. I want to grow. I want to level up. I want to be disciplined to be able to achieve my targets...

... I will be.

Karma Boomerang

5 days of eating fast food in a week = pimples galore :8

Gonna keep fried food out of my diet for these few days.. hopefully weeks..


I hope brown bee hoon can be considered as a non-fried food though :8 (one of my daily staples in school)

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I don't believe most people are of a hurtful nature. .. But some take it upon themselves to administer "justice" on others, so as to balance the scales.. or so they say.

Who are we to say whether the scales are balanced? How do we know whether the scales are leaning more towards which side, without knowing the other side of the story?

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What you give out, you will get back.

Think it is better to give out love, than hate :o

Love

I love spontaneity.

I love laughing.

I love tearing at touching shows, stories.

I love looking at looking at the sky and clouds, once in a while.

I love it when my brave frontier units uses their bb in the arena.. :p

I love it when I level up.

I love it when i make my friends laugh... which is not that often :8

I love it when people get me and accept me.

I love it when I remember/know that I am special :p

I love it when i connect with the people around me.



What do you love?

Understand?

I just get high when others or articles manage to describe some aspect of me.

Am I happy because
1) Is it because they understand me a bit more?
2) Or because I understand myself a bit more?

How long haven't you tried to understand someone else? instead of assuming you know how they think?

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People do change. Their thoughts do change over time. Instead of stereotyping them into the past impression that you had of them, maybe once in a while, you can try to understand them, again? Maybe they will also appreciate you believing that, they can be the better person that they want to be.

Sharing this image from the Liar Game manga..

Ownership

I really really really don't like people who do not take responsibility of their own actions.

I will learn and keep improving on how to be a better communicator so as to allow those people to understand what they are doing.





... Is there a need for me to tell them that they are not taking responsibility of their own actions? ... I don't know.

Would saying that taking responsibility of your own actions, actually empowers you with the knowledge that you are in control of your own fate, actually makes the argument more attractive? But why would these people want to be in control of their own fate?

... What if they don't believe that they can be in control of their own fate? ...





... I am kinda stuck here.. I don't know how to convince this bunch of people to take responsibility of their own actions. Can someone give me some guidance? .. :8

Right

None of us have any right to anything. Please appreciate what you have, while you have it. Everything is really not that permanent.

我失控了

I lost it... Just lost it. When that happened..

I was feeling really guilty because what I did, didn't improve the situation. Someone was just trying to vent. But I stopped it, with my actions.

I was feeling guilty also because I should have allowed the venting to take place. But I didn't allow it. All because I cannot stand seeing someone allowing oneself to become "sadder". But I may have made things worse.

I felt really bad.

I feel.. just bad now.

Next time.. If there is a next time, I will control myself from stopping any venting, from anyone.
Unless, the situation gets a lot of times worse than the start.

Legitimate Photo

There is a difference between people who take/post lots of selfies, and people who take/post photos of/with friends.

I am trying to consider the following reasons
1) people who take/post selfies
    a) only think that they are the best, and want to share themselves with the world, or
    b) are trying to get affirmations from others
    c) don't dare to ask others to take photos with them
    d) don't dare to ask others for permission to post the photos up
    e) Want to show themselves and others that they are present in the current reality. (存在感）
    f) for no reason :6


2) people who take/post/ photos with/of friends
    a) don't think they are important enough to take up just one photo for themselves
    b) to show/remind themselves or others they have friends, that they are popular
    c) to show/remind themselves or others that they are not alone
    d) for no reason :8

I guess all the above reasons are kinda legitimate, and there should be a lot more other reasons.

Connections

I do not have any friends who are working as chefs or personal assistants for rich people. Think it will be quite interesting to have cookouts with chef friends and to ask the personal assistants about their experiences with their employers.

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What kind of person do i envision myself to be? ...

1) I will be a genuine person (to the best of my abilities :8),
2) who accepts all people (will try my best :6) ,
3) who will still always be wowed by new experiences (does it mean that it will be good for me to spread out my new experiences?)...

...let me refer back to my blog profile for some reminders.. :6

okay okay..
4) to allow myself and people around me to feel better, if not good, about ourselves (in a healthy manner)

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Link about visualization:
http://www.spiritscienceandmetaphysics.com/jim-carrey-is-about-to-blow-your-mind-the-power-of-intention-and-visualization/

Jim Carrey:
Thought is one of the things that causes our suffering. (Totally agree.)
Who is aware of how we are thinking? (Only ourselves.)
I am the Universe. (woo yahh!!)

You can totally intend the life you want for yourself. :)

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Anything can happen, good or bad, But it is how you react and manage these things, that shape your reality, and in turn, shape the world you are in.

Just think of the infinite possibilities that you can do with your life if you were to make conscious choices all the time..

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I am thankful for all the people that I have around me now, and all the people I had around me. I have learnt so much things from them. I feel guilty of not getting in contact with a few of them.. :s

Here are most of them here..





 

 



 










 



 


 







.... hahah... just spent around an hour looking for these photos... so mannyyyyy... think there are many others too.. just that, these ppl are the ones that I have spent more moments with, during one period or another.. I miss everyone of them here. Think maybe I will send them a "good day" msg again.. haha... haven't done that in a few years..