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Got this email from daniel and from other friends before... Think it's quite meaningful.. Remember to look at the last few sentences..

An Excellent Read

I arrived at the address where someone had requested a taxi. I honked but no one came out. I honked again, nothing.

So I walked to the door and knocked. 'Just a minute', answered a frail, elderly voice. I could hear something being dragged across the floor. After a long pause, the door opened. A small woman in her 90's stood before me. She was wearing a print dress and a pillbox hat with a veil pinned on it, like somebody out of a 1940s movie. By her side was a small nylon suitcase.

The apartment looked as if no one had lived in it for years. All the furniture was covered with sheets. There were no clocks on the walls, no knickknacks or utensils on the counters. In the corner was a cardboard box filled with photos and glassware.

'Would you carry my bag out to the car?' she said. I took the suitcase to the cab, and then returned to assist the woman.

She took my arm and we walked slowly toward the curb. She kept thanking me for my kindness.

'It's nothing', I told her. 'I just try to treat my passengers the way I would want my mother treated'.

‘Oh, you're such a good boy', she said.

When we got in the cab, she gave me an address, and then asked, 'Could you drive through downtown?'

'It's not the shortest way,' I answered quickly.

'Oh, I don't mind,' she said. 'I'm in no hurry. I'm on my way to a hospice'.

I looked in the rear-view mirror. Her eyes were glistening.

'I don't have any family left,' she continued. 'The doctor says I don't have very long.'

I quietly reached over and shut off the meter.

'What route would you like me to take?' I asked.

For the next two hours, we drove through the city. She showed me the building where she had once worked as an elevator operator. We drove through the neighborhood where she and her husband had lived when they were newlyweds. She had me pull up in front of a furniture warehouse that had once been a ballroom where she had gone dancing as a girl.

Sometimes she'd ask me to slow in front of a particular building or corner and would sit staring into the darkness, saying nothing.

As the first hint of sun was creasing the horizon, she suddenly said, 'I'm tired. Let's go now'

We drove in silence to the address she had given me. It was a low building, like a small convalescent home, with a driveway that passed under a portico.

Two orderlies came out to the cab as soon as we pulled up. They were solicitous and intent, watching her every move. They must have been expecting her.

I opened the trunk and took the small suitcase to the door. The woman was already seated in a wheelchair.

'How much do I owe you?' she asked, reaching into her purse.

'Nothing,' I said.

'You have to make a living,' she answered.

'There are other passengers,' I responded.

Almost without thinking, I bent and gave her a hug. She held onto me tightly.

'You gave an old woman a little moment of joy,' she said.

'Thank you.'

I squeezed her hand, and then walked into the dim morning light. Behind me, a door shut. It was the sound of the closing of a life. I didn't pick up any more passengers that shift. I drove aimlessly lost in thought.

For the rest of that day, I could hardly talk.

What if that woman had gotten an angry driver, or one who was impatient to end his shift?
What if I had refused to take the run, or had honked once, then driven away?

On a quick review, I don't think that I have done anything more important in my life.

We're conditioned to think that our lives revolve around great moments.

But great moments often catch us unaware-beautifully wrapped in what others may consider a small one.

PEOPLE MAY NOT REMEMBER EXACTLY
WHAT YOU DID, OR WHAT YOU SAID,
BUT THEY WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER
HOW YOU MADE THEM FEEL


Life may not be the party we hoped for,
but while we are here we might as well dance

gr: p.s. everyone has their own way of dancing (@_@)

no sweat

Got this from PostSecret. Think that it may be helpful to some people...


-----Email Message-----

Hi - I'm a doctor, and you'd be suprised the number of people who suffer this complaint. It's called 'Palmar Hyperhydrosis', and is easily treatable. You can get cheap roll-on deodorants, which consist of aluminium chloride, the active ingredient in deodorant.

You do't need a prescription, it's available over the counter. I've advised many of my patients to give it a try, most with resounding success and bone-dry palms days later! Give it a shot!

tiredz

Apart from only living in the now, I have to take care to stay out of vicious cycles.. now.

it's okay

"If you saw you as God sees you, you would smile a lot."
-quote :o

personal meaning

"No one can create your experience of anything. Other beings can, and do, co-create the exterior circumstances and events of the life you live in common, but the one thing that no one else can do is to cause you to have an experience of ANYTHING you do not choose to experience. In this, you are a Supreme being. and no one- NO ONE - can tell you "how to be." The world can present you with circumstances, but only you decide what those circumstances mean."
-quotes.

create magic

"No. You are living an illusion. This is a big magic show. And you are pretending that you don't know the tricks - even though you are the magician.
It is important to remember this, otherwise you will make everything very real.

Keep in mind that what you are looking at, you are not really "seeing." Your brain is not the source of your intelligence. It is simply a data processor. It takes in data through receptors called your senses. It interprets this energy in formation according to its previous data on the subject. It tells you what it perceives, not what really is. Based on these perceptions, you think you know the truth about something, when, actually, you do not know the half of it. In reality, you are creating that truth that you know."
-Quotes.

enjoyful

Enjoy to the fullest what you like to do.. especially doing those things that make you feel good :o

normal is the new usual

I kind of understand how it is possible that we create every event that is happening in our lives now. When we really believe in something, things and events and people would support that truth. It's not the other way round... that when things and events and people begin to support something, only then, you start to believe in it.


Everybody does things because of love... Understand and remember this, and you will not be hurt...

just be it

"There's nothing I have to have, there's nothing I have to do, and there's nothing I have to be, except exactly where I'm being right now.
This does not mean that "having" and "doing" will be eliminated from your life. It means that what you experience yourself having or doing will spring from your being - not lead you to it.
When you come from "happiness," you do certain things because you are happy - as opposed to the old paradigm in which you did things that you hoped would make you happy.
When you come from "wisdom," you do certain things because you are wise, not because you are trying to get to wisdom.
When you come from "love," you do certain things because you are love, not because you want to have love.
Everything changes; everything turns around, when you come from "being," rather than seeking to "be." You cannot "do" your way to "being." Whether you are trying to "be" happy, be wise, be love - or be God - you cannot "get there" by doing. And yet, it is true that you will be doing wonderful things once you "get there."
Here is the Divine Dichotomy. The way to "get there" is to "be there." Just be where you choose to get! It's that simple. There's nothing you have to do. You want to be happy? Be happy. You want to be wise? Be wise. You want to be love? Be love."
-Quoted.

love talk

"Where there is deep love, words are virtually unnecessary. The reverse of this axiom is also true: The more words you have to use with each other, the less time you must be taking care for each other, because caring creates communication. Ultimately, all real communication is about truth. And ultimately, the only real truth is love. That is why, when love is present, so is communication. And when communication is difficult, it is a sign that love is not fully present."
-quoted.

emo ranger

omg... I'm still feeling kinda emo this morning. I was just watching a bit of power rangers on okto and i was touched upon watching their "silly" antics. e.g. their fighting scenes, when the enemy monster was kinda whining :p before it disappeared... :s

insecurity sucks

You know what this packet of stuff is? ...... ... It tastes almost the same as what you think it should taste like... :p haha...


After hearing about what I have to do for FYP, I haven't felt so stressed since dunnno-when... :s ... I have to plan... and just go step by step ba...

jumping in march.... :p

I didn't know that ":o" is supposed to stand for a surprised look. I always use it when i wanna exclaim something. e.g. good morning :o


My friend mentioned that... Good looking people can more afford to be themselves... After thinking it through, I realized that i don't really agree with what she said. It all depends on whether the person has confidence in himself/herself. If he/she has low self confidence, he/she will not dare to be himself and will still try to be what everyone else wants him/her to be.
Good looking people have problems too... :p partially quoted from david.

palm reading

I had my palm read in school today :o by this master..... khor. I didn't had my fortune told before so i decided to have a go at it, and i paid $20 to have him tell me about my love, career, money/luck, fertility, travel, health.

These are some things that i remember him saying...

• Next year would be a boom or bust year.
• I'm clumsy and accident prone. I would not die young, but if i do, it would be due to an accident.. :p
• I have a lot of 贵人.
• I would bring good luck to my spouse.
• As i have an eye for beauty, my wife would be very beautiful. If she is not beautiful, i would not have liked her in the first place.
• The master said that i would definitely migrate.
• I am a natural performer because i love adulation, applause and recognition. Maybe i should try something musical....
  
• I am very petty-minded. I will forgive but i will never forget :p
• I'm a person who's a sucker for details.
• I tell a lot of white lies :p
• My love life is boring.
• I'm a perfectionist for love and work... so it will be hard for me to love anyone... :/ ... and most of the time, i would be doing a one-man show at work.
  
• I don't have a romantic mouth, only a romantic heart.
• It is difficult for me to express myself.
  
• Most of the time, I would be thinking about relationships and love.
• I have a blunt mouth, so it is quite easy for me to offend someone. So it would be best if i'm holding a top position at a company or if i'm my own boss, so i dun have to worry about offending colleagues or bosses.
  
• I'm horny and sexy... haha! :p

Anyway... I know that these are just possibilities. At first, before deciding to have my palm read, i was wondering, " Why pay to have our own fortunes told to us? Is the money to pay for the preview of our own life?" ... But after listening to my own fortune, i realized that i like listening to affirmations about good things that will happen in my life :p It makes me look forward to my future.

crescents

One day at the start of 2001, a lonely and not-so-confident boy G and friendly girl Y met during their first 3 months at PJC. Then friendly girl Y, being friendly :p, intro-ed boy G to a few of her other friends. And boy G still meet up with them to catch up... till now... Anyway.. boy G and girl Y have the same bday :o










I only have photos dated back from 2006.. didn't really take any photos with them when i was kinda fat back then... :s

Anyway, i caught up with them today to celebrate yw's bday. I wanted to stay with them for dinner... but had to go off for tuition :s


Although we only meet up once in a while to catch up, and that i don't really always chat with them... :p I appreciate that they still ask me out for gatherings and bday celebrations... :p
Thank you :o

choose to be

"When you are preparing to have your abortion, therefore, or when you are preparing to smoke that cigarette, or when you are preparing to fry and eat that animal, and when you are preparing to cut that man off in traffic - whether the matter is large or small, whether the choice is major or minor, there is only one question to consider: Is this Who I Really Am? Is this who I now choose to be?
And understand this: No matter is inconsequential. There is a consequence to everything. The consequence is who and what you are.

Every act is an act of self-definition. Everything you think, say, and do declares, "This is Who I Am.""
-quoted.

pong pong hair

I'm not going to cut my hair due to a remark my mom made when she saw me. She said that my hair looked good.... But i wanted to cut it in the first place because i find it too pong and grassy.... :s


I need sleep :s ... going to bathe first.... good night :o

miscommunicate

Sometimes, some people are unable to communicate clearly their intent to others... and this will cause frustration for the communicator and the communicatee.

To solve this problem, i will now pass on this teaching from destiny.... :p

1. Centre yourself - Notice your breath
2. Pose this question in your mind - "What is my intent?"
3. Listen out for its reply
4. Centre yourself again - Notice your breath
5. Confirmation feeling comes
6. Trust it, don't dismiss it.

Just keep this in your mind. Once you are very sure of your own intentions, it will be quite difficult to get the wrong meaning across.

In case the communicatee still misunderstands the communicator, the latter could still try to explain it to the communicatee again. If it fails, it is okay. You have tried your best. Others cannot control what you think/say/do, and likewise, others cannot control you too. 听者有意 (You see what you want to see). You can only accept it.. and then let go and move on. There is a time for everything and everything happens for a reason.


All these are just suggestions... But you are still the one who decides what to do. If you feel good doing something, just keep doing it. If you change your mind and you start feeling bad about something, just stop doing it.

It is okay to be yourself. Nothing is right or wrong. If you don't like yourself to be like this, just change it. Don't just worry and think about changing. Do it. If it is difficult, you can either keep trying, or you can just stop trying to change and accept yourself for who you are. Rest for a while and if you still don't like yourself like that, you can continue to work towards a different you.

There is no such thing as normal and abnormal. Being different does not mean that you are abnormal. Being the same as majority of the people does not mean that you are normal....

It is okay to be who you are..

love

"Love has no requirements. That's what makes it love."
-quote

personal reality

Everyone lives in their own reality... I was reminded by this as i walked past this uncle who was talking into space...

You perceive your own reality as how you believe you see it. You will see it as what you would like to see it as. It may be a happy one... a sad one.. or a meaningful one... or a meaningless one... Keep in mind that it changes every moment.. You can decide how you believe This moment to be..

the only promise

"Remember this: There is only one sacred promise - and that is to tell and live your truth. All other promises are forfeitures of freedom, and that can never be sacred. For freedom is Who You Are. If you forfeit freedom, you forfeit your Self. And that is not a sacrament, that is a blasphemy."
-quoted.

marriage

"The institution you call marriage is your attempt to create security, as is the institution called government. Actually, they are both forms of the same thing - artificial social constructions designed to govern each other's behavior.

If marriage allowed you to be unlimited, eternal and free in your love, then it would be the ultimate announcement of love.
As things are now, you become married in a effort to lower your love to the level of a promise or a guarantee.
Marriage is an effort to guarantee that "what is so" now will always be so. If you didn't need this guarantee, you would not need marriage. And how do you use this guarantee? First, as a means of creating security (instead of creating security from that which is inside of you), and second, if that security is not forever forthcoming, as a means of punishing each other, for the marriage promise which has been broken can now form the basis of the lawsuit which has been opened."
-quoted.

free will

"You mean I don't have a right to expect - or at least hope - that other people will keep their word?

Why would you want such a right?
The only reason that another person would not keep their word to you would be because they didn't want to - or they felt they couldn't, which is the same thing. And if a person did not want to keep his word to you, or for some reason felt he just couldn't, why on Earth would you want him to?
Do you really want someone to keep an agreement she does not want to keep? Do you really feel people should be forced to do things they don't feel they can do?
Why would you want to force anyone to do anything against his will?

Do you really think if you force another to keep a promise that you will have escaped injury?
I tell you this: More damage has been done to others by people leading lives of quiet desperation (that is, doing what they felt they "had" to do) than ever was done by persons freely doing what they wanted to do.

When you give a person freedom, you remove danger, you don't increase it.
Yes, letting someone "off the hook" on a promise or commitment made to you may look like it will hurt you in the short run, but it will never damage you in the long run, because when you give the other person their freedom, you give yourself freedom as well. And so now you are free of the agonies and the sorrows, the attacks on your dignity and your self-worth that inevitably follow when you force another person to keep a promise to you that he or she does not want to keep.
The longer damage will far outweigh the shorter - as nearly everyone who has tried to hold another person to their word has discovered."
-quotes :o

free choice

My student told me this morning that, hard boiled eggs are meant to be eaten at the start of the meal, otherwise indigestion will occur... I learnt this the hard way... :/



Each-a-cup is my favourite slacking place... after it's closed... :p

thou shalt not deny thyself

"I choose to teach others never to deny themselves."
- quoted.

promised obligation

"If the time has come when you have desired this special demonstration with one person alone, then choose it, as you say. Announce it, and declare it. Yet make your declaration an announcement moment-to-moment of your freedom, not your ongoing obligation. For true love is always free, and obligation cannot exist in the space of love.

If you see your decision to express your love in a particular way with only one particular other as a sacred promise, never to be broken, the day may come when you will experience that promise as an obligation - and you will resent it. Yet if you see this decision not as a promise, made only once, but as a free choice, made over and over, that day of resentment will never come."
- quoted :o

好吃！

我喜欢吃家里煮的饭 :o

chicken rice spirit!

I donated some money to this lady blowing her harmonica at the train station just now.. I realized that I've been doing that to most of the buskers I've seen ever since I've been influenced by mr "chicken rice" :o

to let go

haha... I've been copying and pasting stuff from other sources.. This is from Adrian's blog.


To let go doesn't mean to stop caring;
It means I can't do it for someone else.
To let go is not to cut myself off...
It's the realization that I can't control another...
To let go is not to enable,
but to allow learning from natural consequences.
To let go is to admit powerlessness,
which means the outcome is not in my hands.
To let go is not to try and change or blame another,
I can only change myself.
To let go is not to care for, but to care about.
To let go is not to fix, but to be supportive.
To let go is not to judge,
but to allow another to be a human being.
To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes,
but to allow others to affect their own outcomes.
To let go is not to be protective,
It is to ermit another to face reality.
To let go is not to deny, but to accept.
To let go is not to nag, scold, or argue,
but to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.
To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires,
but to take each day as it comes and cherish the moment.
To let go is not to criticize and regulate anyone,
but to try to become what I dream I can be.
To let go is not to regret the past,
but to grow and live for the future.
To let go is to fear less and love more.

casper

Casper the Friendly Ghost - TV Themes





I think I am kinda allergic to prolonged exposure to a big number of people... The transition process for me to become a ghost gets a lot faster in this kind of situation... :p

Expectations tire me...

*touched*

*hugs!* to everyone..