Do you want to be happy?

counter-clockwise

2009-12-11T11:13:00.002+08:00

I went to ECP yesterday.

I forgot who started the thing about "counter-clockwise". Someone mentioned it because it stands for positive moments... (it's a engineer joke.. you'll know it if you take structures as a module... :8 ).. thought it was kinda funny and witty though... :p

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I was watching a mother with a baby and another kid playing with each other on the train yesterday, when i suddenly wondered.. Have there been any cases of babies or kids being accidentally crushed by adults? (e.g. an adult accidentally falling down and sat on the baby.. etc..) ... :s

water-based activities

2009-12-09T09:22:00.006+08:00

Yesterday morning, my mom asked me to go down to the Sembawang Hot Spring to get some hot water for her leg.

Then there was this friendly uncle who directed me to the tap that provides the hottest water.

After that, I went down to Sentosa :o But I was there, only to visit the Underwater World. The funnest thing was to touch and feed the manta rays :o

Everybody's appetite was whetted by all the seafood at the Underwater World, so we decided to have japanese food for lunch... :p

The best advice to follow, is the one you would have given to others who are in the same situation... You can be your own advisor.. Just calm down, be a third party in the current situation, and analyze...
.... Maybe this only applies to me.... :8

misfit

2009-12-06T23:44:00.005+08:00

I like this tree :o

:/ david says that now, I look like jolin before she allegedly went for surgery... :/
gotta exercise :o

I was tidying up one or two shelves when i came across this notebook of mine. It was 2 or 3 years back... I think I just finished reading this book that sort of says something about moments that make us happy.. I even had a few pages in which I asked a few of my friends to write down theirs... :p i was even more childish back then.... (... ya, it's possible... :s )

I don't think misfits exist. There are, people who are more obviously different, but, they still fit into the whole puzzle.

out of steam

2009-12-03T00:13:00.002+08:00

2 more days/exams :o

ga me

2009-12-01T21:32:00.007+08:00

Our lives can be compared to being in a game. Some of us hold the controllers to control our own games. Some of us like to "hold" the controllers of others. Some of us like to pass our own controllers to let others.
The common point over here is, we would like our objectives/expectations to be met. This is most possible if we control our own games. It is the same if we hold the controller to other people's games. But I'm sure you would not like it if someone else tries to control your game, because he wants his expectations to be met. (unless your objective is to let others have control over your life... :/ ) Lastly, when you pass your controller over another person, it would be difficult for your own objective to be met and there might be disappointments when objectives/expectations are not met..

In the game of reality, there is no save point or restart point. Everything you feel, think, do, will mean something and will make an impression in your life.. You do get to decide on how you wanna feel (good or bad) when you "make up" the reasons for everything that happen, are happening, have happened.

Your game will still carry on and it will not stop, no matter if you give up or if you decide to move on. If everything is moving, why fight against the flow?

outta sight, outta mind

2009-11-30T00:01:00.003+08:00

In reality, beauty is present... as well as ugliness. There are times when i cannot stand ugliness (e.g. actions/behaviors, exams, :p etc...). This is when I have to remind myself that, I do not have to give them any more attention than necessary. There are a lot more beautiful things in the world. Life is not long enough for us to focus our energy on bad stuff (stuff that makes us feel bad), so we should just focus on good stuff (stuff that makes us feel good) :o

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For NTU students, please do not go to the bus stop after the bus stop at old Canteen A. It is seriously super mosquito-infested :s I only learnt my lesson after going there three times... :6

fakes begone :o

2009-11-28T22:57:00.003+08:00

I just realize that one of the things that irks me the most, are things that are fake... I really appreciate those that are and have been true... I want to be Doraemon... so that i can pull out an item which can send the fake stuff into another dimension :s .... or it can just change the fake stuff to their true selves.................................................... :6

true beauty

2009-11-27T22:04:00.002+08:00

Spasm king doing what he does best on the iphone's bubble wrap application... :p

I love this expression that my cousin made! ... :p I just remembered that I told my friend that it would be funny to see anybody doing ugly stuff.. e.g. farting, salivating while sleeping on the train... :p The reason that i gave her, is that, everybody tend to beautify everything and they will tend to hide everything which they think is ugly or not "beautiful" enough to be shown to others. So when someone shows an ugly side, i'll appreciate it, as that would be the true part of that person... :p But I am a bit biased in this, as I will not like it if that person's true part hurts me... :s

Anything that is true, is beautiful...

The action of feeling sad over the feeling of being not needed, gotta go... I've been getting this feeling quite frequently and have been associating this feeling with being useless... :s

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Most of the time.. "Tired" is a feeling we come up with, when we are doing things which we do not like to do... agree?

I'm tired of studying for exams... :/

same old diffewence

2009-11-26T23:25:00.004+08:00

We will always get what we want...The question is whether you would still want it when you get it...

I turned out different.. like how i always wanted to be... Now i wish that I am not that different.... .... ..... noooott :o I would still prefer to be diffewent :p .... I just need to be strong to handle it.... :/

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I just remembered that in the past, when my family was still living in a shophouse at Yishun, there were a few times when my sister invited her boyfriend back home. And as all of us stayed in the same room, (all of us meaning my sister, my brother, my maid and myself), she would use blankets to cover up her area as her place was the bottom part of a double decker bed.... haha...

artifishy

2009-11-26T01:00:00.002+08:00

I was having a short chat with ys on a short walk to 7-11 just now when we touched on the topic regarding common interests or rather, couples being in the same "league". I think, some couples would have preferred that their partner is doing what they are doing... as in, studying or working. My opinion is that, the reason why they would prefer this, is because they can talk about issues that they know about = They are only interested in their own things. If their partner talks about things which are unrelated to what they know, they would not be interested. And once time passes, their partner will not only be uninterested in the things they say, they will also be uninterested in them... :s This is what I feel about how some people behave.
If most of the time, both parties are genuinely interested in the other, instead of themselves, they would enjoy their relationship more...

darn darn

2009-11-24T18:19:00.005+08:00

interview me :o

just finished 3 papers in 24 hours.... didn't sleep, cause i spent the whole night/morning studying in school...... Can anyone help me pray that I'll pass my RC? ... :s

addicted to jewels

2009-11-22T16:45:00.004+08:00

6 papers to go...

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Filling up myself with food instead of knowledge.... :s

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bejeweled is porn.... :s

full foot = (满足)

2009-11-18T00:14:00.003+08:00

j asked me what i want... I thought for a while, and i answered," Nothing. I have everything that i want now." .... :p

david also asked me whether i feel i will make it big in the future. I said,"I will when i want to."

I get frustrated when friendships/relationships get affected badly because of me, indirectly or indirectly... when it is not my intention to do so. But, I just realized that, I cannot control what others think of others... So there is no point in getting frustrated over something that cannot be changed. And, I do not know the other parts of the story. :s

beacons of light

2009-11-16T11:12:00.000+08:00

I wanna be an unimposing, mobile lighthouse cum dock... You will have nothing to fret about if you're in the area :o

solution to "sorry" problems

2009-11-15T11:39:00.002+08:00

You do not have to feel sorry for anything, towards anything...
Just do what you can do to help. If you have tried your best, that is enough... This is what i feel la.... :p

a day in the life of Grobot

2009-11-14T22:55:00.005+08:00

To cd: Thank you :o

尽力

2009-11-13T01:54:00.001+08:00

sucker for surprises

2009-11-12T00:15:00.004+08:00

HIT: being bluffed by marcus... haha... I haven't had any surprise in a long time... I guess this is considered as one ba... :p

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对事不对人

spirit for free

2009-11-10T14:30:00.001+08:00

In my opinion, I think most people tend to be sad when they try to be strong, when they don't believe themselves to be... ...
If you want to feel better, instead of staying sad, general solutions would be to really believe yourself to be strong, or do things to make yourself believe that you are stronger.

... During this pre-exam period, I've come to realize that, I do not really have any loyalty towards any group of friends. As in, I do not hang around any particular group for long.
This is not due to any arguments, misunderstandings, or boredom. It just happens.
As a result of this, ... (how do I say this? ...) ... I feel that my presence will not be missed. Thy do not ask me along for meals as I think that they assume that I'm eating with my other friends. They do not ask me along to study together as I think that they assume that I'm studying with my other friends. For my side, I do get kinda sad because I'm not included.. which i want to be.

I guess, not wanting to be bound by rules or regulations or commitments, has its side effects. ... ... Is it possible to do away with them.... the side effects?

feel

2009-11-10T22:25:00.005+08:00

Pity does not look good on anybody's face... not on mine at least... I think... :s

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Something that I heard over the radio on class 95 at around 8.30pm..
"People never grow up. They just learn how to act in public."

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Something/someone that you thought you knew.... yeah... you "knew"... past tense..
disclaimer: generally speaking...

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Grateful Occurence Of the Day (GOOD... :p) : having the company of friends while studying :o thanks to yg, sm, jl, esther.. :p

sit down, sit down, and move it all around... :6 (M18)

2009-11-06T19:21:00.005+08:00

Sweet Incident of The day (SIT) : remembering the first time when we touched.... :p haha!!

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The first times are the times which some or most of us treasure the most as we'll get hit full force by what we do not expect. During subsequent times, as we form our expectations towards similar situations, our emotions will get increasingly jaded towards good things, increasingly controlled towards bad things...

greatfull = gr eat full :8

2009-11-06T01:09:00.006+08:00

HIT : working on the same tedious and difficult problem with friends for a few hours :8 ... :p

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Today, I feel grateful

to this person, ZK, whom i barely knew a few days ago, whom I only exchanged a few words with. I talked to him as I saw him on my way to the toilet. He agreed to pass me his useful!! information on the same elective that we are taking... Rocks :o ... :p
for being able to learn more about structures through the take-home quiz.
for being able to see jolyn and marcus in the evening today, "scare" them and chit chatted with them :o
to jy, candice and ql who lent me their notes to copy :o
to everyone who treats me like a friend... haha......
for warm sun rays, mcflurry, chocolate oatmeal cereal, my friends' and my laughter, silly ideas... :p

Just felt like posting up a photo for fun... :8

expectant perceptions

2009-11-04T22:35:00.001+08:00

HIT - discussing and working through questions with friends :o

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Everybody have expectations.. of themselves and of others. Since a long time ago, either subconsciously or consciously, most of us have been trying to meet the expectations of others, as we see them more important than our own. To some of us, it may be easier to try to perform to the expectations of others as they are... there. Most of us do not know what we want, so we do not form any clear expectations for ourselves.
As this goes on, some of us have gotten used to expecting our expectations of others to be realized. If they are not met, we will be disappointed in others. Maybe it is due to the fact that some of us do try hard to meet the expectations of others, while expecting others to do the same. Or it might just be due to the fact that we expect others to meet our expectations.
No matter whether we like to meet our own expectations, or we like to meet the expectations of others, take note that, we, ourselves would prefer to have our own freedom in making decisions. We would not like to be imposed with the ideas of others. No matter how good or appropriate the idea may seem to the other person, it is still up to us to make the decision to whether we would want to try the idea out.

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"The problem with most people now, is that we tend to find the easy way out to find ppl.. We just stereotype and classify them... Dun set up any barriers between you and potential friends just because of assumptions you make.. Get to know them first, then decide for yourself ba.. Dun be lazy and take the easy way out to figure ppl :o Dun do it just because other ppl are doing it.. Set your own standards :o you dun have to be like the others :o"

"What is important to you is how you feel.. Only you know everything about yourself.. You can't blame other ppl for having their own different opinions about you because they dunno everything that happened to you.. Even if they know, they have experienced different lives and they have their own perceptions towards the same things.. Everybody have different mindsets... And, you cannot control their thinking.. So there's also no point in trying to change them... If you wanna feel better, just accept that everyone thinks differently.. And just work on your own part.. Dun let other people's doubt influence you.. Nothing can affect you unless you allow it to affect you... You can be even stronger :o"

-quoted from me :o

relaxing day

2009-11-04T00:05:00.003+08:00

There's a reason for everything... and you're the one who decides on it! wahahaha! .... :s

An example would be.. When you're running along a path and someone moves away, it might be because that person thinks that you are smelly and dirty and don't want to get in contact with you. Or it might be because that person wants to give way to you.. You get to decide!

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Happy Idea of The day (HIT.... :p ) - sending perky msgs to my friends :o

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A reason for sad ppl to continue to be sad :o

idid

2009-11-02T15:31:00.003+08:00

Finally!! ... I finished my report at around 1pm. If not for the 1 hr plus nap that I accidentally took at around 3 plus, and the 20 minute breakfast break, I would have been working continuously for 15 hours..... ..... :s Did I really work for that long? ... I think I must have took a few more breaks in between... scary.... :s

After the report, I decided to reward myself by allowing myself to go to the pool to tan and sleep. Luckily, it rained. ... The lucky part was that I was helping my sister to run errands so i had not boarded the train to yck... :p

Then I decided to shop at the supermarket. At the start, all I wanted to buy was cornflakes and milk, because i haven't had this breakfast for a few months. Then, after walking through a few more aisles, my whole basket was full! .. This was not the scariest part. The scariest part was that the cost exceeded my expectations by $20 :s I guess I was too engrossed in stocking up foodstuff which would help me to survive through the revision period. E.g. coffee, green tea, milk, yogurt, chips, listerine and a few more other stuff. I bought berry essence from brands.. Think this carried quite a heavy weightage of my expenditure :s I wanted to try it because.... I haven't tried it before :o

I think I should have taken out the plastic bags before I took photos of them.. :/